Saturday, March 15, 2014

momentary happiness

Cross-posted from my tumblr just because...

I'll try to be productive today while listening to this one over and over...or at least stare at this MV for the nth time since yesterday? Or not...that would be creepy but it happens sometimes, lol. Also sort of obsessed with Hanamura Sota, that cute redhead <3 ....and you don't want to know how many times the play button has been abused. On the upside, it's keeping me from getting depressed again or at least momentarily. 

The depression's mild or I think it is but it happens so frequently not only do I find it annoying but...well, it's annoying. I'm probably just burnt out from work, thinking about life and trying to finish my thesis. Applying for another job post of the same thing was clearly what drew this one on. Did I really think I can juggle three jobs at once? Nope, I was just mental these past few days. Thing is, I don't even need to be under the influence of anything like drugs or alcohol to be in this state. I'm someone who can mess up anything so easily without any unhealthy vice I find them unnecessary (I only drink socially and that means really rarely these days). It's mostly work-related problems getting to me so meh. :\

Yep, I'm a Jfangirl and there's no shame in being one. Fandom and being excessively into it is probably my one and only not-so-healthy vice. I'm a boring person. LOL. 

I hardly open things up about these so consider it a snippet on what goes on with me sometimes.

Just a thought: I, at times, feel the need to disconnect from society in general (including the interweb) and all the clutter life throws my way. Times like these help me sort out my thoughts, priorities and others. It's like going on a personal retreat of some sort. Now, I have a handful of really good friends and some decent acquaintances but I find it a luxury if I can have time to recollect in silence, preferably somewhere where no soul knows or recognizes me. I only feel lonely sometimes but it does help me start fresh over the next few days. There was a time back when I was in high school and early college when I can handle pressure really well but now, it's just not the case anymore. I keep having the need to compensate for every moment I put a little of myself out to the public. The upside of such a habit is that it keeps me from self-destructing which is something I'm not to put off in the near future, I keep thinking it will happen anyhow. Right now, I just keep being amazed how I can pull through much, much later on. I've always been the life-loving kind---never was suicidal or close to it, also it'd really be a waste of time and life if I or anyone else I know were---as I have been since a child, so self-destruction only means taking time off from things for me. So right now, before I pick up where I left off in terms of work and stuff, I'm taking this time to recharge my batteries and just listen to the music.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

JMagazine: Vivi

photos from vivi c/o Zasshiko, collage by me

I've always been a big fan of Japan's Vivi for all the photos they can place in one page of the magazine. Every page looks so productive and inspiring that I don't really mind at all if it looks a bit cluttered. And as of the recent issues that came out this year and last year, my top favorite Vivi models are Reina Treindl and Lena Fujii. I'm, at the moment, acquainting myself with the rather new Vivi models like Maggy, Sara Mary and Elli-Rose among others but it's just really such fun to flip through every page even when I only have that one copy from from two years ago during spring/winter season. 

What's really nice, what I really like about Vivi rather is that most of those on the pages can be found on Runway-Webstore, my favorite destination for all things Japanese fashion. They've really got interesting things there. Also, there's the fact that AAA's Uno Misako got me into Emoda...well...that can't really be changed. There are other labels that are just as interesting as Emoda, there, too. It's nice to see that there are a lot more labels selling their stuff there today when there were so few of them two years ago or so. 

In other news, I'm making myself busy with reading, studying and writing my Masters thesis. My target is to finish the thing by May then present it from June-October. I've also been sending some applications here and there for part time writing gigs. All these done in between thinking of what to post on an almost-daily basis if you notice I'd religiously done so last week before missing another two days of posting days. Hey, it was the weekend! Just so you know...I never had anything done that time, too except run on Saturday then read and attempt to finish some work on Sunday.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

sailor shorts

Just got back from a rewarding night run by the local Sports Center's oval/track and posting these that were just taken earlier.

secondhand gap shirt, f21 shorts, payless ankle boots, random bracelets and necklaces

Friday, March 7, 2014

not a vest, possibly not an armor either

This vest thing once had a fringe I cut off before donning it on. This'll probably the closest thing I can get to dressing like a female from the west.

....and I am getting ice cream now.
jeans cutoffs, secondhand wifebeater, thrifted vest...thing/top, forever21 wedges, bangle from a Dumaguete City souvenir shop

Wednesday, March 5, 2014


The fun thing about working from home is I get to play dress-up on some days I get tired of writing and writing and thinking whatever else to write about. Such is the case with this one.

I've had the top along with another dreamy, wispy 2-way top from the Japanese brand, Emoda since around December last year, if I recall correctly. I acquired both by way of Runway-Webstore. Both were purchased around July. Emoda is basically black and white basics and dreamy, wispy heaven. I have yet to find events to wear them in so I settled for trying one of them out this afternoon in between writing tasks with a deadline tonight (*gasp* I hope I finish it on time!). The best way this one is probably worn out in is with the lacy bustier-y bra top from WAGW I got a year ago or so. It was a lucky find and quite useful even when just lounging around---no wire, no padding whatsoever. Just oh, so utterly comfortable. Shorts aren't so noticeable but they are there.

shopwagw leather(ette?) shorts and lace bra top; Emoda top; Primadonna wedges   

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

The New Line (Elle Sweden)

(src: tfs)

I must admit Josephine Aune has won me over her styling after seeing this while browsing through the Elle magazine thread on tfs. Sporty-casual is what I'd like to call it. She's definitely made it to the my favorite stylists as even her way of dressing for events reflects her casual-cool styling---black, black and more black. Just how lounge-worthy (I'd live on it) is that Stella McCartney overall? Also, the Idja Sjostedt, Whyred skirts had me from the start on this one along with the skateboards. I'd invest in a skateboard probably when I'm off to a sunnier place...or the beach though I'm likely to be horrible at it. I do remember being curious about them when I was younger... I'm currently eying skirts of the same caliber (and one romper) from the local What a Girl Wants. Hmn...they would be a handsome reward for work done in about 2-3 weeks, I hope...unless they don't get sold out too quickly. I've seen lots of wearable summer pieces from that shop on my visit last week with a friend and have seen a few good ones on their online shop as well.

This definitely will tide me over until the Friday/Saturday run session I have planned in the week.

And yep, summer is definitely a-commin'~ It's that time again to stock up on summer essentials both on the wardrobe and out. News is that Dad's team of workers and his colleagues have planned on a Dumaguete-Siquijor trip over the summer. I'm beyond the moon on this one. For one, I get to go back to the city I study in sans not yet finishing my thesis semester (I'll do that over the summer, I have a plan...finally. LOL) and probably finally touring and living in the island (Siquijor) for a good 2-3 days. But I'd love to go back there on my own or with just a friend or two than with a big group to be honest.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

it's been so long

(photos by Jan Michelle Dumlao)

It has been so long and it really has been so long. I may or may not have spent the absence from the interweb in between being unproductive and just...feeling depressed most of the time for certain reasons. I have my moments---I am human after all.

A pop of pink on a mostly black, white and brown ensemble never fails to brighten the day, I suppose.

vintage silk shirt and bag; forever21 skirt and boots; random wooden bracelet